Last New Years Eve, I remember writing a somewhat pessimistic post on the coming of the New Year. At the beginning of 2012, I could not see that any changes were going to be made from one year to the next. However, 2013, I know, will be different. I am feeling much more optimistic.
2012, was a fantastic year for the small but great country that is, aptly, Great Britain. We hosted the 2012 Olympic games, did quite well, celebrated the Diamond Jubilee of our monarch and showed the rest of the world that every now and again, when the occasion arises, we can let go of our stiff up lip, let our hair down and celebrate.
However, 2012 was a hard year for me. This does not necessarily make it a bad year, it was just, in parts, a testing year with many ups, many downs and an extremely steep learning curve.
It was the year, in which I learnt more about myself as a person than I ever imagined was possible. I learnt that I am not, as I had always imagined, a city person, that I am most definitely a country girl - I love the friendly nature, the sense of community, the greenery, the scenery and the animals. I learnt that I am not ready yet to venture into the big open world and the expensive and challenging (in a good way) experience of University and that I need to become more independent and confident before I can embark on that journey and get the most out of it along the way.
Maybe most importantly I learnt that, when fully confident in your feelings, whatever decisions you make and whatever information and feelings you choose to divulge to certain individuals, the outcome will almost always turn out alright. You may not receive the response you were hoping for but that experience of putting your feelings out there and being open and able to handle the response allows your confidence, self-esteem and faith that there are mature, nice, caring, respectful people (guys) out there to grow in leaps and bounds. You may or may not know who you are, if you do; thank you.
I want to take this opportunity to thank every person in my life and everyone who has ever read any part of this blog for helping to make 2012 such an experience, helping me to get through the hard times and helping me to celebrate the good times and making them that so much more special.
Much love to all and may 2013 be a wonderful year for us all. Happy New Year!
